There is nothing like a holiday away from everything to reenergise you and help find that motivation that has been hiding whilst you have been enduring long working hours. Well my holiday did do this and so much more but I had only been back at work for a day and a half when a nice big migraine zapped me and my mojo was once more running out the door. It always takes me at least a day to recover from a migraine. The following day I always have a fuzzy stuffy head and my brain just takes longer to get into gear. I forget words, I’m tired and I’m irritable – none of this is a good formula for feeling positive and happy.
However this wee blog is helping me to get back on track. I really want to achieve my goals and be Merry.
I absolutely 100% believe happiness isn’t about getting something or targets (of course those things can momentarily give us a happiness boost or help us to keep on track… mmm cake!) but to be happy you have to embrace positive thinking and just be happy right here and now. Believe me I know how hard that is and I know it isn’t always possible – my episodes of depression mean that I have first hand experience that sometimes no matter how much we want to be content and happy our brains malfunction and we end up in the depths of despair. The depression taught me that in order to keep me on the right track I need to challenge myself, find the positives, appreciate all that I have around me and give myself health and wellbeing goals.
So today now my head has finally cleared I could be grumpy because I am stuck in my greenhouse of a library when the sun is shining or I could think about how truly lucky I am. There has been a little thing on facebook encouraging people to think of 3 positive things for 5 days so here are my first 3:
- I have a good job, a permanent contract which is elusive these days and I appreciate that days in my library working pay for all my other fun things I do outwith the library and actually my job is pretty good. So I might be working today but it means I can get ice cream with my Boyo later.
- I have just been on a most wonderful holiday to a place that I used to live, I am not yet 30 but I really have had a pretty good life and experiences thus far. I’m wearing a gorgeous turquoise stone necklace from my holidays today, a nice wee reminder of Hong Kong.
- I enjoyed a lovely 20 minute walk this morning to my bus. It was a lovely sunny morning, I live in the countryside, those 20 minutes allowed me to chat away to my Boyo and for us to appreciate our surroundings.
So now I’m all happy again (and thinking about ice cream later) I can once again think about ebing postive and think about my little (big) targets for the next few months:
- Start planning meals again. I don’t do a weekly plan but a little forward thinking will help me to be a little more economical and healthier and get back into the habit of cooking everything from scratch again.
- Exercise everyday, walking, swimming, the cross trainer and cycling all need to become part of weekly routine. I need to lose weight and think about my long term health. If it becomes a daily habit it will be a lot easier to stick to it.
- Start taking my vitamins again. This is just me being tired and forgetful in the mornings – the ironic thing the vitamins help me from feeling so lethargic!
- Work harder with the hypnotherapy in order to really work on this vegetable & fruit aversion. Again this is important for my long term health.
- Find a hobby or a class or some sort of activity where I can meet new people. I love my Boyo but having some other friends nearby would be nice and maybe help my social awkwardness improve
- Finish cataloguing my recipe folders at home (such a librarian)
- Do something about the garden. It is only small and it could be so nice.
- Show my Boyo that I appreciate him a little more. When you live with someone it becomes all too easy to take things for granted a little bit. I still get wee moments where it hits me how truly lucky we are and how amazing it is that he loves me just as much as I love him, I hope these wee moments never stop.
- Stop buying clothes and start exploring my own wardrobe a bit more. I was looking back at some older photos and saw things I had completely forgotten about, granted my weight gain means a lot of things don’t fit me but even with the stuff that does I could be a bit more adventurous.
- Save my pennies more. We hope to buy a new home in 2 years, this really should be all the incentive I need, I just forget and live in the moment a bit too much, but saving will mean that more extra special moments – like houses and holidays – will be possible.
So there we go, 10 goals for me to think about and hopefully I will actively pursue them!
That will all for today folks – coming up a little guide to holidays in Hong Kong and of course a Foodie post won’t be far away!